Thursday, January 29, 2004

Horrible dream

I had a HORRIBLE dream right before I got up this morning. I was glad that someone called me and I could wake up from the dream. I dreamed that my dad had passed away, and I was crying so hard in the dream. Since all my dreams are colourful, I usually can't tell that I am dreaming, and I would think that everything is real...so this morning when I got up I was so tired coz I was emotionally drained, and I felt like my brain was exhausted from all the emotional activity that went on while I was dreaming. (Am I making sense here? =P)

So I called my parents tonight and told them that I had a horrible dream. I didn't tell them what it was about, but my mom sort of guessed it right on her first attempt. I didn't tell her that she was right though...but yeah, mom is mom. They know you very well! =) Hehe....then I realize how fortunate I am to have my parents around. Sometimes I am so caught up with my disagreements with them that I almost forget to appreciate them. Friends are blessings from God, so are parents! =)

It's interesting what a horrible dream can do to you! =P

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

Friends=blessing

I had a really long conversation with a sister over the phone today, and yesterday I had another long conversation with another sister...both sisters had their own concerns, but just by listening to them and going through the thinking processes with them have been encouraging to me. Friends are definitely blessings from God, and I don't think I would be who I am now without different friends walking with me along the way.

I don't think I would have appreciated my friends as much if I hadn't moved away from Toronto. I pray for my friends more than before, and I care about them more even though I am futher away from them. Hmm...I don't know how else to articulate how I am feeling right now, but my dear friends, here is a song that I really want to sing to each and every one of you now...so just pretend that I am singing it to you, and next time when I see you, remind me and I'll REALLY sing it to you. =)

Every time I think of you my heart is filled with joy
I thank God for all you've meant to me
You have helped me serve the Lord in many many ways
We are partners for eternity

I am thankful for your fellowship
thankful for your partnership
thankful for the love we share in Jesus Christ
I am thankful for the joy we've known
thankful for the way we've grown
I thank God each time I think of you


"Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!"
Ecclesiastes 4:9-10, from the Bible

Thursday, January 22, 2004

First day of the MONKEY year!

It was SUPER windy when I walked to school at 8:30 this morning. I felt like someone was constantly throwing snowballs at me and I was eating snow for the whole 20 minute walk to my class. I couldn't see anything 2 meters away from me. I was soaked when I got to my class...even the scarf hidden under my jacket had snow on it! You can tell that I am still a newbee with the Ktown weather! =P

Tonight one of my housemates and I decided to check out a Chinese New Year event on campus. She offered to go with me (even though she's not Chinese) coz I was too scared to go on my own...hehe...and we had some fun there. =)

Come to think of it, this is the first Chinese New Year that I am away from home and a whole bunch of Chinese people...so I decided to "hang out" with my Chinese friends on MSN and ICQ even though I am not really talking to them...I am just "hanging out" with them while I read. Hmm....weird enough, this makes me feel less lonely and less homesick. =)

Happy Chinese New Year! ^_^

Have a blessed year of the MONKEY everyone! ^_^

"Sun nin fai lok"! (Happy New Year!)
"Sun tai kin hong"! (Have a year of good health!)
"Sum seung see sing"! (May your wishes come true!)

"Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows." James 1:17

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

Life

I've been STUCK with a book that I've been reading for the past 2 days. I am not kidding...haha...I am stuck to the book and I can't put it down. It's called "The man who lost himself" and it's a story about Terry Evanshen, a former CFL player who suffered from a serious car accident one day, losing all his memory. It's just so hard to imagine what life had been like for him and his family...I am 50 pages away from being done, will share more when I finish the book. =)

Very sad news: a friend's two-month old baby girl suffered from meningitis and passed away last night. For a while I didn't know how to react to the news, and now there are questions in my mind that are unanswered...

Life is definitely not easy, but I am thankful for the hope that I have in Christ Jesus.

Monday, January 19, 2004

Neo Citran--my new friend

I got sick...again! The 2nd time since I came to Queens. I don't remember getting sick this frequently at U of T. Must be the Kingston bugs. =P

My new friend is advising me to go to bed now...so I'll blog more when the cold bug stops bugging me.

Take care my friends! =) Don't let the cold bug visit you!

Wednesday, January 14, 2004

Rejoice!

I am so cold...burr...my landlord turns down the heat at around 12am and I always feel very cold when I stay up to work.

It was great that one of my classes were cancelled today. =) I got some extra time to finish up my application and I am really thankful for that. =) Last night I got the BEST editing on my application that I have ever gotten before! My housemate sat down with me and talked through my whole application with me...we spent more than 2 hours on it. Thank you so much Sam! =) You're awesome!

Today I met with my CPP (Community Partnership Project) volunteer for the last time. We've completed the 6 hours of visit that we need and today was the last one. The volunteer cooked a meal for us and it was so yummy! We had cheesecake for dessert too! =)** Through our casual conversations, I have once again noticed the volunteer's positive attitude in life. She is so positive with her life even without a right arm, and she is enjoying life as much or even more than people who have both arms. She has all kinds of really cool adaptive devices in her kitchen to enable her to cook with one arm, and it's so neat to see her using her prosthetic arm with such skill.

Lately I have been in my little world, pondering about a lot of different things, and meeting my volunteer has reminded me how negative I can get when I start to think in my own little world. I forget how powerful God is and how much He loves me.

"Rejoice in the Lord always. I say it again, rejoice!" Philippians 4:4

Thursday, January 08, 2004

My Urbana experience

I finally got myself to sit down and write my paragraph of Urbana experience tonight. I needed to send it to my pastor and it would be published in the church bulletin this Sunday. Once again I realized how much my Chinese writing skills have deteriorated, I even struggled to write just ONE paragraph in Chinese!!!

Ever since I came back from Urbana, I haven't had a chance to sit down and reflect on what I have learned since I have been so busy running around. Tonight was the first time that I actually sat down and reviewed some notes that I had taken during the convention. There is so much that I can share about the convention, that's why it's hard for me to put my experience into words when people ask me about it. There is just too much! One of the things that I really enjoyed was the fact that I was surrounded by Christians there. Everyone was so nice there and I could talk to anyone sitting beside me about my life experiences even though I had never met them before. This combined with the experience of 20,000 people worshipping together has given me a fore-taste of what it's going to be like in heaven.

I was reminded that I was "fearfully and wonderfully" made by God. The Creator does not make a mistake. Who I am is exactly what God made me to be. My unique identity as a Chinese Canadian is a gift that God has given me, and I can use this unique identity to let God's kingdom shine through me. This is something that I have almost forgotten after coming to Queens and being surrounded by so many Caucasians.

I have sang the song "Give you everything" many times at the convention, but when it comes to really giving God everything, including my trophies of this world, or even my firstborn when He asks is definitely not easy to do. I really pray that I can live out my commitment. Your Kingdom come, Your will be done. Amen.

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

What a bummer!

Life is full of unexpected surprises. Two of my housemates and I were so excited about going to see the Return of the King today. We checked online yesterday for the schedule and it said that there would be a show today at 4pm. We arrived in front of the Kingston Capitol 7 theatre only to find out that the box office was not opened until 5:30pm. The first show of the day was at 6pm! I have a meeting at 7pm so we couldn't see it today. What a bummer!!! We had to walk all the way back and that totally spoiled my mood! =( It turned out that my housemate and I forgot to make sure that the schedule that we were looking at yesterday was for today. Apparently they have changed their show times today and there wasn't one at 4pm. =( Boo...

Monday, January 05, 2004

Interesting read

This is an interesting read...got it from a friend, but don't know the source of it. I hope I didn't break any copyright rules! =P Enjoy!

Science vs. God
"Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ." The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.
"You're a Christian, aren't you, son?"
"Yes sir," the student says.
"So you believe in God?"
"Absolutely."
"Is God good?"
"Sure! God's good."
"Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?"
"Yes."
"Are you good or evil?"
"The Bible says I'm evil."
The professor grins knowingly. "Aha! The Bible!" He considers for a moment. "Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him? Would you try?"
"Yes sir, I would."
"So you're good...!"
"I wouldn't say that."
"But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't."
The student does not answer, so the professor continues. "He doesn't, does he? My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?"
The student remains silent.
"No, you can't, can you?" the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.
"Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?"
"Er...yes," the student says.
"Is Satan good?"
The student doesn't hesitate on this one. "No."
"Then where does Satan come from?"
The student falters. "From...God..."
"That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?"
"Yes, sir."
"Evil's everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything, correct?"
"Yes."
"So who created evil?"
Again, the student has no answer. "Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness. All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?"
The student squirms on his feet. "Yes."
"So who created them?"
The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.
"Who created them?"
There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized. "Tell me," he continues.
"Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?"
The student's voice betrays him and cracks. "Yes, professor. I do."
The old man stops pacing. "Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?"
"No sir. I've never seen Him."
"Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?"
"No, sir. I have not."
"Have you ever felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus? Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter."
"No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't."
"Yet you still believe in him?"
"Yes."
"According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?"
"Nothing," the student replies. "I only have my faith."
"Yes, faith," the professor repeats. "And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith."
The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of His own. "Professor, is there such thing as heat?"
"Yes," the professor replies. "There's heat."
"And is there such a thing as cold?"
"Yes, son, there's cold too."
"No sir, there isn't."
The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet. The student begins to explain.
"You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called 'cold'. We can hit 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any
Re: further after that. There is no such thing as cold; we use the word to describe the absence of heat. We cannot to go colder than -458 degrees. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it."
Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom sounding like a hammer.
"What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?"
"Yes," the professor replies without hesitation. "What is night if it isn't darkness?"
"You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light...but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called
Re: darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?"
The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. "So what point are you making, young man?"
"My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with and so your conclusion must also be flawed."
The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. "Flawed? Can you explain how?"
"You are working on the premise of duality," the student explains. "You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite; something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death
Re: cannot exist as substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from monkeys?"
"If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do."
"Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?"
The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going.
"Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?"
The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.
"To continue the point you were making earlier, let me give you an example of what I mean." The student looks around the room. "Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?"
The class breaks out into laughter.
"Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelt the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?"
Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable.
Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. "I guess you'll have to take them on faith."

Saturday, January 03, 2004

It's 2004!

Happy New Year my dear friends! =) I celebrated my New Year with 20,000 people in a huge Assembly Hall (aka "wok")...it was so much fun praising God into the New Year of 2004. =) Now that I am back from Urbana 2003, I feel like there is still so much for me to digest, and I can't believe that I am going back to school in 2 days! Anyway, I should be sleeping coz I haven't been getting enough sleep...will blog again after I get my cable connection back in K Town. =)

Our Father, who art in Heaven, Hallowed be Your name.
Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our sins, as we forgive those who sin against us.
And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
For the kingdom, power and glory are all yours, forever and ever, Amen.