Growing flower

Do I have ADHD?

Lately I started to wonder whether I have ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder)! Man...I am always so distracted, start one thing without finishing the other, and never get things done efficiently. It's getting a little frustrating coz tomorrow is FRIDAY! Yikes! I can't believe it. The reading week totally FLEW by....i just hope I can at least get SOME work done.

posted by Growing Flower @ 2/25/2005 01:23:00 a.m.

a song for ME! =)

I was back in Toronto for the past weekend...and it's definitely refreshing to see all my friends and family again. It's too bad I can't stay for the whole reading week and have to come back to work on my projects...boo...but I am glad I had a break from all the crazy school work. =)

One of the friends that I've met up this past weekend actually wrote me a song two years ago...(awww.....) and I have recently got the lyrics of the song. It's such a sweet song...thank you so much CAT! =) I thought I would share it here...

All's been torn down, all's been taken
Where can I find the anchor, my shelter
They're taken from me

All those times we've spent together
Everyday you took note of my presence
You made me feel important

It's been so long I don't realize
You don't belong to me
So you'll have to go and it's not so easy for me

I'll tell you why:

You've been my family
You've taken good care of me
This broken heart of mine
Your friendship enriched my life

It's hard to let you go
You'll build a new page in life
You'll reach more broken hearts
Your love will enrich more lives

There's a time for everything
There's a time to part
There's a time for everything, everything
There's a time to grow

Word & Music by Catherine Tin, dedicated to Jacqueline -- Written on June 6, 2003

I am so grateful for my friends...can't do it without you guys!!! =) Yes, that's YOU! Hehe...LOVE YOU LOADS! =)

posted by Growing Flower @ 2/21/2005 06:26:00 p.m.

Wa!

Have you ever felt like there are tons of emotions trapped inside you but you don't know exactly why? It's like you're ready to explode but feel like you shouldn't because you don't even know why you are feeling this way in the first place....hmm....tonight is just not the night for me....but I'll be in Toronto for the weekend! =) Not looking forward to coming back to kingston to work on my 4 projects though...yikes!

posted by Growing Flower @ 2/18/2005 12:21:00 a.m.

after Hitch

Before I start blogging about my thoughts, I need to say this: I LOST MY FAVOURITE TRAVEL MUG!!! =( It disappeared from the side pocket of my backpack on my way to Starbucks for a studying session. =(

Anyway, back to the main topic of this blog. I went to see Hitch with a friend today. I am not a big Will Smith fan, but if you want to laugh your head off, Hitch will do that for you. =) It's definitely a good break from my busy school week. Just to make sure I don't spoil the fun for those of you who hasn't seen the movie but are planning to see it, I won't tell you too much about the movie...but basically Will Smith is a "date doctor" in the movie, trying to help guys capture the heart of their dream girl within the first three dates. Will Smith ended up trying his own philosophy on himself. Anyway...the movie brought up something that I thought would be interesting for me to blog here.

It seems like everyone wants and expects honesty from the people around them, especially from their closer ones. However it seems like honesty is something that we expect others to have, but we may not necessarily be honest ourselves. It's OK for us to tell a white lie because we don't want to hurt other people's feelings; but it's not OK if someone is lying when he/she tells us that we had a good haircut because he/she doesn't want to hurt our feelings. It seems as if we all have double standards. I am known as the "gullible" one among my friends. If you tell me that the phone booth you're in is broken and you're carrying the huge phone just to talk to me, I'll believe it. I admit that I trust people too easily, but I wish I can always trust people with all my heart without worrying about being "gullible". I really wish I can be "gullible" all the time. Afterall, are relationships based on learning how to doubt? Relationships are all about trust, as many of you would agree. So why on earth do we need to learn to be less "gullible" when we are expecting others to be honest with us?

I wish I don't have to learn to be less "gullible"...and I really wish that being "gullible" is a good thing. Too bad in this world it isn't...

posted by Growing Flower @ 2/13/2005 01:32:00 a.m.

my new crave for MSN?!

Lately I enjoy "hanging out" on MSN a lot...I used to wonder why people would go online and put on an "away" sign instead of going online when they are REALLY online...I think I am starting to understand why. Going on MSN and putting on an "away" or "busy" sign makes me feel like I am "hanging out" with my friends in Toronto even though I may not be talking to them or I am not physically with them....but I feel like I am making myself "available" for them in case they need to talk to me. My housemate puts it this way, "I use MSN as an answering machine." It's true, people can leave you a message anytime they want to talk to you, and you will be available to them. However it's a weird feeling to be chilling and hanging out in the cyber space...I would still prefer seeing my friends for real...hehe...

I've been taking a very interesting course every week, and one thing that we discussed last week was that technology can bring people closer in a lot of ways, but can also push people further apart. Take cell phones as an example. Since we can talk to our friends on our cell phones now, we are less likely to talk to the stranger sitting next to us on the bus. We are less likely to talk to people who are in closer proximity to us because we are talking on our phones with people who are far away. In that sense, phones can push people further apart. Even though people live in the same community, they may not necessarily know each other anymore.

I think MSN can have the same effect....instead of hanging out with Queens friends, I may be hanging out with my Toronto friends on MSN....so there's gotta be some balance. Now...I'll stop babbling coz it's time for me to snooze...man, I just wish I have more time...so much work!

posted by Growing Flower @ 2/03/2005 11:54:00 p.m.