Growing flower: January 2005

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Bye neuro!

WOOHOOOOOO!!! I PASSED NEUROANATOMY!!! I am estatic!!!! Haha..i feel like jumping up and down...no more torture from this stupid course!!! =P Thank you so much God!

Sunday, January 23, 2005

about love...

Hollywood's prescription for lasting relationship
1. Find the right person.
2. Fall in love.
3. Fix your hopes and dreams on this person for your future fulfillment.
4. If failure occurs, repeat steps 1,2, and 3.

God's prescription for lasting relationship
1. Become the right person.
2. Walk in love.
3. Fix your hope on God and seek to please Him through this relationship.
4. If failure occurs, repeat steps 1,2, and 3.

I am so grateful for this weekend. =) God has totally energized me and reminded me to look at my life with a wider perspective...I hope I can keep this perspective so that I won't be too stressed throughout the term.

"And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God's marvelous love. And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love really is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is so great you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Now glory be to God! By his mighty power at work within us, he is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope. May he be given glory in the church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever through endless ages. Amen." Ephesians 3:17-21 (NLT)

Friday, January 21, 2005

blah

So much readings...so many assignments...so many things to do...can I have more than 24 hours a day pleeease?

Lots of things in my mind...heard lots of unhappy stories lately...can I have more mind space so that my head doesn't feel that "cramped"??

Blah - This is how I feel right now. But I am definitely thankful for friends.

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Crazy for You

I went to watch the musical Crazy for you with my housemate and her friends tonight...it was SO GOOD! The lead singers sang very well, and the script was so funny! Then we went to have a hot cup of bubble tea, and I came back with a full stomach of Taro milk black tea with bubbles....hehe....=)

In brief, the story of the musical is about an hier of a banking family, Bobby, upon his arrival in a mining town for a business trip, instantly fell in love with a woman, Polly, in the town. Bobby was willing to do anything to win Polly's heart, and eventually with some wit and persistence, he won Polly's love.

As humans we are crazy for many things in life: we are crazy to get ahead, crazy to stay in shape, crazy to find any kind of security, crazy to earn big bucks...but are the things that we are crazy about really worth our time and energy to go crazy for?? Or is there something more in life that is worth us to be crazy about?

I am crazy to know more about the God who loves me enough to die for me. I am crazy to touch others with this love, and I am crazy for the life that He has planned ahead of me. And of course...I am crazy to find out about my "special one"...in His time. =) (hehe...please don't mock me next time you see/talk to me, or I'll be dreadfully embarrassed.)

~"What does the worker gain from his toil? ...He (God) has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."~~ Ecclesiastes 3:9~11

Monday, January 10, 2005

in denial

I think my body is refusing to get back into "school" mode. I had an 8:30 class today and felt very tired until I took a nap later in the day. I had a temporary memory loss/"in-denial-that-holiday-has-ended forgetfulness" and ended up signing up for a topic for a class project which I had previously researched for another class. Argh. I couldn't get myself to do any school work today either. I hope this doesn't continue or I'll be so dead for the rest of the term...@_@.

Monday, January 03, 2005

New Year thoughts

Happy New Year!! =)

Two more friends are leaving Toronto for Hong Kong in a couple hours. It's always sad to see friends leaving. Half of my fellowship has gone back to Hong Kong, and every time someone leaves I can't help but to sigh. Coming to Canada from Hong Kong was a big adjustment: New environment, new culture, new friends. Now that I have settled down and made my own friends, my friends are leaving (or already left) again. It seems like I constantly have to adjust to the sense of loss. Sometimes I wish that I was made a native Canadian, or a Chinese who doesn't need to move. I used to hate being in the middle: not exactly CBC but not "fobby" enough. It seems like I am always different from everyone else. Well...God made me unique, and He'll use me in a very unique way.

Tonight I played monopoly with a group of friends. I came back home feeling a little annoyed, disappointed and upset. I am annoyed because people were very insensitive about how others felt when they made certain comments; disappointed because people could make such negative comments to achieve their own ends; upset because I had expected more sensitivity from these friends. Even though it was only a game, I didn't feel like we were having "fun". I kept asking myself: Am I taking things too personally? Am I being too "siu hey" (in Chinese terms, meaning easy to get mad)? In the end I figured that it's not worth it for me to get upset over this, but I also reminded myself not to be the person who makes people upset. This will be a reminder for me to be sensitive to others' feelings and also be careful with my tongue.

Hearing about the Asian Tsunami has created some ripples inside me. Life is very fragile, no one knows what will happen tomorrow. These people lost their house and family within a few minutes/seconds...yet I am sitting here in North America typing away comfortably in a very nice house. I feel very blessed, but at the same time I feel helpless. I can't even imagine what it would be like if I am one of the victims or one of the survivors who has lost all his/her family members. I can't imagine...

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