Growing flower

I did it!!

A couple months ago I asked for your opinion about whether you think I can do a half marathon...and I DID IT!!! :) I ran the half marathon yesterday with 6720 others who particpated in the event and it was a great experience! I was 2 minutes faster than my goal time so I am happy. :)

I must say that it was very challenging...the last 6 kilometres was very tough. Yesterday was hot to be running for 2.5 hours, and I have never run in such hot weather before. I was so tired when I reached the 15km sign and I remembered thinking to myself: "Man...will I be able to finish this?" The cheering crowd along the race course really helped me out, and I deeply felt the importance of encouragement during the race.

Perseverance was key to the race. People running with me during the race also helped me persevere. I was ready to walk the rest of the race when there was 3km left, but I saw so many people running pass me, so I got myself to run again. Then the signs really helped me...especially the signs counting down the metres I had to run...1000m, 750m, 500m, 400m, 300m, 200m, 100m...FINISH!

It was nice to finish the 1/2 marathon race...and now I need to concentrate on my life race. There is a goal ahead of me which I need to reach--my OT national exam in July--but I am still quite puzzled in terms of what my other life goals will be. I am somewhat impatient about not being able to find a hospital job and not being able to settle down in a church. Those were my 2 important things in life that I am still unsettled in. It'll be nice if I can run the life race like I did in the 1/2 marathon race...

posted by Growing Flower @ 5/29/2006 11:43:00 p.m.

Something to lighten up your day =)

posted by Growing Flower @ 5/03/2006 10:50:00 p.m.

I need space!!

I need space!!!

1) I need more space in my nasal cavity.
Lately my nose has been a non-stop tap and Kleenex has been my best friend. My nose will soon be as red, if not redder than Rudolph. When I wake up in the morning, I feel like my whole head is congested. Battling with allergies is not fun!!!

2) I need more mind space.
My mind hasn't rested since 9:30am today. I worked from 9:30, didn't get off work until 5. Then I have to pick up a friend and rush to tutor at 6:30. I got home at 9, had a quick dinner, then my parents were asking me to do things. As soon as I sat down, my phone rang. Just as I was about to take a breath, my phone rang again. It's 11:32pm and I am exhausted.

3) I need more physical space.
Living at home is not easy. I miss the days when I can go home and chat with friends. I miss the days when I don't need to deal with nagging. I miss the days when I have the freedom to organize my own schedule according to my own plans and not being told what to do. I need physical space from my parents in order to grow up. I need physical space from my parents to have a better relationship with them. Things are just not the best right now.

Lately I feel like garbage can that is full and is spilling. There are friends around me who needs to "unload", and i have been taking in and taking in to a point where I am full. Yes I feel privileged that friends trust me enough to unload, but I think it's a combination of parents + job search + tutoring at night + church search + no consistent support group + friend's crises that are causing me to feel BLAH...............I feel like screaming!! Can I have some space to breathe?

posted by Growing Flower @ 5/02/2006 11:29:00 p.m.